one

my three year old summer is the sweetest. since most of the time, i would just stay at home and watch for her and dawn, she would know when i get tired, unhappy and irritated. well, i don't divulge myself in those emotions most of the time but whenever she would probably sense that am into it, she would go to me and whisper....mom, you're my number one. awww....i know, it's from the nido commercial but who cares? summer means it and it gives me so much pleasure to hear it from my baby girl =D

as i have the luxury of time in reading nowadays (during my breastfeeding moments with dawn), i want to share the three prayers that i read. it's been my personal prayer most of the time and probably until my RAIN, SUMMER and SPRING (as rain don't like his sister's name dawn =C ) grows up =D (Title of the book is: THE MOM YOU'RE MEANT TO BE ....thanks mhajette for the book =D) here are the prayers:

1. Lord, please fill the gaps between the love my kids needed today and didn't get from me, even though i was loving them the best that i could.

2. Jesus, redeem my mistakes (gosh, i made plenty of them, but i was encouraged that God could use even my blunders to draw my children to Himself)

3. Lord, help our marriage, but let it begin in me =D

For my fellow mothers, let's ALWAYS ask God for His mercy and wisdom because we couldn't do this important job (mothering =D) apart from the Lord's grace.

my rain, spring and summer =D

sleep

"kapag may baby ka na, luxury na pag nakatulog ka ng 4 hours straight sa gabi..."

i heard that line when i was still single. my friend grace shared that to us, jane and gigi, while we were having our break at ceu canteen. i didn't mind it at first until i became a mom. totoo pala...

when my sister was still little, i would tell her kapag sleeping time na...matulog ka na kasi kapag malaki ka na, kahit gusto mong matulog, hindi na pwede kasi limited lang ang time mo dahil sa dami ng gagawin mo...hay, sleep....

naalala ko tuloy si aileen, my best friend. during our ceu days, it amazes me how she would handle her time. she would wake up early in the morning, go to work, go home at night, would cook, follow up assignments, etc. ang galing nya and i would even tell myself, kapag kaya ganun ang buhay ko, kaya ko kaya? oh well.....look at me now =D thanks best for being my mentor! (at wish ko lang mabasa mo ito =D)

at dahil dyan...since tulog lahat ng mga alaga ko now, matutulog muna ako. power nap! =D

nasty

you are pregnant AGAIN?
you just gave BIRTH?
ilan na ANAK mo?
oh my....


i keep on asking my hubby allan, kasalanan bang mabuntis ako? do i really have to explain kung bakit buntis ako, nanganak ako at ngayon may third baby na? it's so awful. i feel bad hearing nasty side comments asking me why am i pregnant for the third time...parang ang laki ng kasalanan ko. naman....

well thank God i have my friends, family and relatives who serves to be my support system. am coping well with my three angels now. nakakaloka lang talaga but i know i will survive =D yun lang =D

dawn =D

January 2. i had my weekly check up...but because my ob was out of town, aileen, my bestfriend was the one who checked me in her clinic. after the internal examination, they told me that my cervix is 2-3cm dilated (expanded/widened) . i decided to stay at the clinic while allan went home to get my baby bag and some things. after a while, kinabahan na ako. i'm sure am ready to have a VBAC - vaginal birth after ceasarean pero natakot ako sa pain. hehe...sabi nga ni joicy....feeling primi (first time =D) daw ako.hehe

January 3. i can feel the contraction getting stronger but tolerable. sabi ko kay ai at around 3am, siguro mga 3-4cm na ako. true enough! after the internal exam (again???) 3-4 cm na ngang dilated ang cervix ko. galing ko! nakakatantya na ako. haha! they told me to just walk and walk para bumaba si dawn kasi naka float pa ang station nya (meaning wala pa sa pelvic area ang ulo ni dawn. kailangan bumaba pa sya lampas ng pelvis for me to give birth). so i did what i was told. kaso mga 4am, nakaramdam na ako ng pagod. i slept for awhile. after all, hindi naman mawawala yung pain kung true labor ang nangyayari but to my surprise, nawala ang pain pagkatulog ko. first time nangyari yun. 

i went to the hospital at around 10am so that my new ob can check me. she told me to have my ultrasound to have the amniotic fluid checked. pag normal pa, she's giving me until saturday para mag trial labor. after saturday, CS na. huhuhu. i prayed so fervently. ayaw ko talagang ma CS! had some labor pains the whole day pero natitiis ko sya. mataas kasi ang pain tolerance ko.

January 4. since the doctor advised me to walk and walk para bumaba na si baby dawn, i did that as early as 4:30am. at 6am, 6cm na ako. but floating pa rin si baby. ayaw bumaba talaga. since floating sya, bawat internal exam sa akin masakit. huhuhu. as in. 

10am - walkathon with aileen again

1pm - went to uratex to buy bed for russel =D

3pm to 7pm- walked and walked with allan

4pm - ka text at kausap ko si papa j to lessen my anxiety. na lessen nga ba? hahaha. well yes! =D thanks papa j!

at 7pm, 7cm na rin ako. my ob said that i needed immediate monitoring na since 7cm na hindi pa bumababa si baby. i was rushed to the hospital. pagdating dun, my cervical contractions/ pain ended. bat ganun? when the resident doctor checked my dilation, fully dilated na daw ako at station 0. i doubt that kasi wala naman akong nararamdamang pain. dinala agad ako sa DR table. when my OB checked me, i wasn't surprised when she said, paki lipat daw ulit ako sa labor room kasi 7cm pa lang daw ako. huhuhu. at 10:30pm, it was decided....CS ako to prevent complications. well, God has a plan. kaya pala na CS ako because the unbilical cord was too short that the baby can't descend. the following day, when i woke up....i already have.....

adrielle dawn s. contreras

rain don't like the name dawn. spring daw gusto nya....with that, i already have rain, summer and spring! =D thank God. what more could i ask? =D