rain

while taking a bath...

mom: rain, come here. i'll put soap on your "birdie"

rain came closer then said...

rain: this is embarrasing mom....

(anu daw???)

the other night, while he was busy playing with his captain america mask, i got the mask and put it on my face...

rain: mom, that's not yours

mom: why?

rain: it's for boys. you see, this is captain america. you are a girl. you're supergirl

mom: but i don't have a mask

rain: ok...i'll tell daddy to buy you a mask and a panty, ok?

(ok....pwede bang may bra din? hehe)

ompongs

allan and i went to ompong's last saturday. it was my...let's see, my 3rd time there and allan's first time. love ko ang goto dun at yung beef mami nilang amoy may anis yung sabaw (tama ba? anis?) hmmm.....one of the few things that i would miss in malolos bulacan. =D

sarapness!

ang goto

yummy tokwa and my forever favorite, ang lumpia

scarce

scarcity amidst abundance. 

that was one of the lines that struck my mind in the recent mcnap seminar. the speaker was talking about the ratio of nurses versus patients in our country. and come to think of it, tama ang speaker. madaming nurses pero kulang. just yesterday, when i was at the hospital taking good care of my mama, i remembered the tag line when i saw some irregularities the nurses had during her shift. nakakairita. kulang na mga ang mga nurses, underrated pa ang iba. chillness....

on giving medication

nurse: mommy, eto na po yung diuretics ninyo.... (ha? ano yun? please use lay man's term)

on vital signs taking

respiratory rate, not taken. pulse rate, 15 secs lang ang kinuha. 

the nurse placed the bp cuff along the antecubital space (in short, sa may line- likod ng elbow)

nurse: ay, mataas ang bp nyo mommy. uulitin ko na lang po mamaya. 

on bp taking

me: ah nurse, kakakain lang nya ng lunch. magb-bp ka na ba? as in now lang sya natapos eh.

nurse: oho, kukunin ko na....

after awhile....

nurse:mataas po bp nya. mamaya na lang ulet

on medications part 2:

nurse: mommy, eto po ang antacid mo

(sarap sabanutan ha...)

on input and output:

nurse: mommy, nakailang ihi ka na simula 6am?

mama: 3

nurse: ilang baso yun?

(haler, malalaman ba naman ni mama yun eh sa bowl sya umiihi???? sya kaya ilang baso ang ihi nya sa shift nya???)

on congestive heart failure:

nurse: meron po syang excess fluid sa katawan. ang nangyayari po, kapag ihihiga sya ng straight, nalulunod po sya sa tubig kaya bigla po syang babangon.

(ah ok....)

madami pa to. kaya lang wag nang ilagay lahat. baka wala ng pumunta sa hospital eh. yun lang =D 

pedxing

mahirap tumawid sa kalsada dahil sa mga pasaway

talk about ped xing. it's a good way to practice discipline. pero, papano ka naman gaganahang tumawid kung ganito? hay....

i took the picture last week sa kasagsagan ng aking depression. hehe.

survey

i'll be leaving and when you learned that, you vigorously searched for me, approached me (cornered actually), and talked to me. it was such an awkward monologue since you were the only one talking. i heard so many things from you but i kept quiet. i maintained my composure even though a part of me wants to answer back, shout and reason out. you talked as if you knew everything about me:  how i teach, how i work, how i would behave, everything. when you said that my resignation was God's blessing, that was the point that my mind and body wants to explode. you were so rude.

Here are my thoughts now:
a. It would have been better if you choose the proper time and place for us to talk.
b. It would have been better and ethical if you said nice words to me before I leave. (kahit sana binola mo na lang ako. Nag thank you ka man lang sana kahit na sa matagal na panahon na nag-stay ako)
c. The least thing that I need to hear from you were your judgmental and prejudicial remarks. Any educated, thinking and ethical person would have refrain from doing what you did.
d. You were asking me, what is the best thing for you to do as of now (why can't you see? siguro mag-resign ka na lang din =D or better yet, go to Fukushima.)
e. Your remark about me leaving would be God's blessing is absolutely below the belt and highly subjective. (Dinamay mo pa ung nasa taas..... Sabagay, blessing ba kanino? sayo?)

I will leave but i will be leaving a very good and indelible mark. Wala na siguro ako dyan, marami pang makakaalala sa akin...... PERO, pag ikaw ang umalis, baka mag fiesta pa ang lahat dahil sa tuwa. and what mark will you leave? an invisible ink.

Gusto mo bang magpa SWS survey ako? Between me and you, sino ang gusto ng mga taong umalis? type A pag ako at B pag ikaw then send to 2366....

Anu kaya ang resulta???? Napaisip ka no? =D (Well, it's a good exercise to remove those cobwebs up there)

repost...

matagal na pala akong blogger...panahon pa ng friendster, may mga blogs na ako... below are my favorites:

1. mga happenings lately, march 24, 2009 =D
2.mga bagay na nakakairita so far, november 13, 2008 =D
3. am okay, nov 9, 2008
4. first time, aug 5, 2008
5. an angel was with me, january 10, 2008

wala lang...nakapag surf lang =D

important

surely, there is nothing compared to the love that i continue to receive from my students. it's my sweet first year students turn to let me know that they don't want me to go. they had their "moment" with me awhile ago and i was so overwhelmed with the love and concern they have been giving me. i didn't know i was loved that much since i only meet them once a week for their return demonstration. we have less interaction, less talk, less of everything. but when they talked to me awhile ago and i saw them crying, i just can't figure out ...was i really that good when i was little for me to receive these kind of blessings?

the magic pin

i saw the pin - world's greatest teacher again.... =D heart warming. thanks guys!

they told me that their love will fade only when these flowers wilt =D

sarap...thanks guys for the love

i am deeply humbled with your love guys =D and i love you back! =D

your love is the greatest gift of all guys!

satisfied. sana sa sunod kasama ko kayong kumain ng ganito ha =D

i love you guys. =D thanks ruby, celina, shiela, sharlene, aprille, elizabeth, ana, jessica, james =D

mangga

well, kung si adriel joseph, aka AJ ay may post sa kanyang blog tungkol sa keso sa nal 5, ang akin naman ay ang mangga sa nal 5 =D

sour and yummy =D

bat kaya ang pagkain ng mangga, mas masarap kapag may kasama? well most of the time naman mas masarap talaga pag may kasama. naitanong ko lang kasi sa dami ng mangga sa bahay, iba pa rin yung mangga na laging dala ni mam den den sa nal5. every afternoon kasi, after we eat, eto ang panghimagas namin. hmmm...ang sarap. the good things in life are always free. at free nga talaga ito... =D

thanks mam den!

candy

as i was reading my daily dose of facebook mails, i saw this one and it made me cry big time. it came from ms. arlene crescini, one of BSU's pioneer batch...


"isa sa mga di ko po makakalimutn syo eh yung pano mo po na gain ang paggalang ng pioneer batch.... kamukha po mung nageexam tayo.. ewan ko po kung naalala mo p po.. during major examination lumabas ka po ng room habang nageexam kami ... as expected sabi ko sa sarili ko magkakagulo na ang mga to at magkokopyahan magbubukas ng book at kung ano ano pa.. pero mali po ako... wla akong narinig na kaluskos at pagagalaw tahimik lng talaga ... then mayamaya bumlik ka po may dala kang kendi at binigyan mo po kami lahat.... nsakin pa po yung balat ng maxx candy na bigay mo.. hehe... after nung MS time napagusapan naming lht na tahimik kmi nung lumabas ka lahat kami pareho ang naramdaman na baka nakatingin ka sa bintana kaya wlng nagtangkang mangopya samin.. hehehe.... yun tlagng ginalang ka po ng batch namin...
at nung time po na buntis ka kay rain na sad kami kasi po aalis ka.. pero masaya kasi merun kang baby....then during our PGH tour nakipagkita ka po smin sa mall hehe sya namin nun..."



i can vividly remember when i bought candy for these students. i went out and look for some candies because i can sense that they were having a hard time answering the midterm exam. unfortunately, the store on the ground floor don't have enough candy for 40 plus students so i had to buy more candies at three different stores (candy shopping =D). when i was done, i went back to our room and distributed the candies. i told my students to have some candy because candies contain glucose and glucose is food for the brain. =D 


almost everyone gave me their sweetest smile, that paid off the effort i gave. 


thanks arlene for this wonderful message. i will forever treasure all our sweetest times together. =D 


kudos! =D 

names

i went home carrying roses (many to mention =D). from bulacan to cubao, i kept on smelling each flower. the smell reminds me of my 2b.

i feel so special. thanks 2b

i composed myself when i came home. rain was still up and when he saw the box of cake, he sang "happy birthday", kissed me and said, "Mom, i love you. Happy birthday".... that made me smile but when i saw this......

a very powerful box. it was able to extract tears from my eyes.

when i saw the first letter, my tears fell down like rain. all the letters struck my heart.  thanks my dearest 2B for the love, effort and time. since time is gold, you have given me so much gold because i will not be able to give you back the time you spent in writing these letters for me. gracias! big time.

never had it this way. there's always a first time.

i know am not but if ever i'll be one, i'd dedicate it all to you guys! thanks camille!

Thank you so much..................... Kimberly ray, Arlene, maria richelle, flerida mae, mark Wesley, Dianne Cathleen, Alyssa joyce, mary grace, joyce Nicole, Kenneth, rizzamae, adrynnette, mira benz,  emmalyn, Noreen, monica, larnie, gerrely, Anthony, merian, Shiella mae, shiela, jeramie, ferlyn joyce, jhennie Shayne, onofre, Erica maria, kathlyn anne, keena alexis, zenaida, jose marie, Alizza, maria Kristina, mida, annalyn, Camille, reinino,  unica, Raquel, maricon, mary rosenette, Erickson, dhariel, tam Terence, james patrick.
(sana wala akong na miss. kung meron please tell me so i can edit this)

thanks for being a part of my life. i love you all! KUDOS.

today

i still remember the time ..........

i started at bsu, october 16, 2005. we were 8 faculty members. jane and nher- the assistant dean then, urged us (jun, aileen, gigi, and me) to go to bsu because they needed clinical instructors. we went there. the exam that we had was brain damaging. hehe. but we surpassed it. after the exam, the panel interview. i can't forget what the president asked me during the interview....why did you chose bsu? where do you live? how many hours will be your travel time? -well technically, i lied. i said it'll only take an hour for me to get at bsu, why? well because i have my own apartment at mendiola manila, near malacanang (i know, i don't really live there. i live in antipolo but i can't seem to tell them that) Mendiola is nearer than antipolo if i'll go to bulacan since i've to take the lrt, then bus. i'm used of travelling far areas in manila and it's a pleasant experience to travel to the province this time =D

i actually like the place. the green rice fields that I see when i am at nlex makes me feel refresh (until now). i like the idea that am in the province where everyone seems to be warm and polite. unlike manila, bsu grounds don't have any fast foods, fancy restaurants but i still like the place especially the green mango shake blyth and i used to buy at VOP.

the first faculty i got close with was princess. it was our duty at OPD, BMC. then, mommy dory. been close to mommy dory every since we met. princess, susan, jane, jun, aileen, dhang, jenny, blyth, nher and i. we were the faculty of CON. ang saya. walang away. walang siraan. wala lang.

when i got pregnant with rain, i decided to stop teaching so i was out for a sem. pagbalik ko, ang dami ng nabago. but, life must go on. i previously taught medical surgical nursing. then maternal and child.

i love mcn. how the sperm meets the egg. how a person became a winner in relation to a single sperm (out of millions of it) penetrating an egg. i love the subject. i love the lessons i get while teaching it. it's me. mcn is related to me.

and so it goes. been handling mcn lecture for four years until now...................

it's actually my final day of lecture at bsu. since yesterday, i tried to keep a strong facade, but, whenever i would be in front of my students, my energy goes down. the strong facade am keeping seems to be melting. i want to cry. if only i can, i want to embrace my students tight. yung tipong group hug. 

i thought that i was too brave to leave. but no. braveness sometimes can't carry it all. i don't want to go but i have to. during the past three days when it was my day-off i was sure of myself that i want to leave but when i saw them, my students, leaving them would be synonymous to breaking my heart. i so love them. sabi ko nga, am not here because of the money. am here because of my passion to teach. am here because i want to make a difference in every student's heart and life. never been attached to the students but i am now. i know that i can't hold them forever and i've to let them go and explore the world kaso when that happens, i want to see them and be with them. i want to witness them as they get their diploma, as they tell me, mam jill, i did made you proud!

to my precious students, life would never be the same without you in my life. i will be missing you forever. our "kadiri" days, our laughter that would seem like forever, i will definitely miss my days with you. i will not be miss jill without you guys. i will not be effective as you said i am, without you. you will forever be my inspiration and i will forever be your number one fan. one of the wind beneath your wings!

miss

rain and me at bsu

Things I'll miss about bsu

1. my students. I will definitely miss them. Their innocent faces. Their laughter, their noise, their warmth. Been to feu and ceu, nothing compares to the warmth of bsu students. They would smile at me whenever they'd see me or say hi at me when I walk pass them at the corridor. I will miss sharing with them some of the things that I learned in life and I will miss telling them my forever favourite dialogue...ladies, be like your egg cell. It patiently waits for the sperm to arrive. Never did the egg cell came down to the cervix to wait for the sperm. That would be so absurd and very far from reality. For men, be like your sperm cells. As much as it can, it only fertilizes one egg. Be patient and strong like your sperm cells..... =D

2. my friends. Their absolutely give me my daily dose of eustress. without them I wouldn't survive a very toxic day. When I learned that some of them would have hospital duty (in shourt, maghihiwalay kame) and I would stay at school, It made me think that probably leaving would be a better option than to stay at school alone.

3. razons. This is aileen and jill's favourite place, our bat cave. It brings me old memories from my old colleagues. Aside from their good food, I will definitely miss the laughter and fun times there together with my friends.

4. uniwide. Hehe. Where cheap things are always for sale. And what's so good about it is that you can't find most of their items in manila. =D

5. orlando's. A piece of heaven. A place of grill. I would miss the fun and laughter I had with my friends there. Well some of their items are pricey but it's okay. Treating myself once in a while wouldn't hurt.

6. park and dine. I mistakenly called it park and ride before, and AJ burst into laughter when he heard me say it. Kaloka. Sensya na papa j, am used of having park and ride here in manila.

7. my late night brainstorm session with jane. Sorry guys. I don't call jane as mam jane because this is my blog. Hehe. And because she is one of my best friend since ceu days. Well that would be, 8 or 9 years from now. Tagal na pala. If ever you'd here me calling her mam jane, it's because am at school...well, minsan pag dalawa nalang kame, jane na lang =D I will miss the times when we would just sit at the corridor in the second floor and wait for the dusk talking about almost anything under the sun. I know that we focus on the same direction. I know that we both like the same things. Saying. Dami pa naman ako gusting i-share pa =D hehe

8. malolos market. It's the place where I find most of the ulang's I love to cook. Hay. I'd miss that.

9. aj's apartment. It's the place where we bonded the most. Where we can shout and say anything that we want to say.

10. my colleagues. Mam myline, sir nabong, mam honey - avon!, mam luz, mam Arlene, mam Karen, pareng aurenz, pareng marvie, mam ira, mama olive, mam mart, mam lanie - I didn't know bakla din sya, levi- hindi na tayo nakapag bond. huhuhu, Alvin- my crush, ahehe, mam jen. Well if you are not here, you are probably included in my square of friends. Hehe

Well, I know there are more things to miss but I only narrated the top ten. I don't like to give myself enough reason to stay. For now. Para naman hindi ako maiyak ng husto. =D

sayote

cute di ba?

mabuti pa ang sayote. pwedeng maging hugis puso. pwedeng magka puso. yung ibang tao may puso nga sing tigas naman ng sayote. hush....

teacher

i was in 6 years old when i first felt it. naramdaman ko na gusto kong maging teacher. dati kasi, pag sinabing teacher ka, nakakaangat ka. kagalang galang. well, siguro ganun pa rin ngayon pero ibang level na. madami na din kasing teacher ang hindi nakakapagturo ng maayos, balahura, balasubas, nagtitinda lang ng tosino, bibingka, etc. hindi na nagtuturo. hirap kasi ng buhay....

well, the passion went on hanggang makarating ako ng 4th year high school. when the time came that we have to go to our guidance counselor for our career orientation, ang unang nasa isip kong "maging" ay ang pagiging teacher. unfortunately, my mom persuaded me to take up nursing. persuasion with a threat. hindi daw ako pag-aaralin pag hindi nurse ang kukunin ko. and so it is. wala akong choice. nursing ang kinuha ko....but, that didn't stop me from being a teacher.

four years after i graduated in college, kumuha ako ng 18 units of education sa MIST, marikina. it's good to know na credited ang ibang subjects ko sa nursing. yey! after two semesters, i took up the LET and i passed! my dream for years has finally came true. never been happier! =D

novice, i taught elementary students first. after two years, high school. after two years, college.

now, after all that has happened, it pains me kapag may nagku kwestiyon sa pamamaraan ng aking pagtuturo. for the longest time that i've been a teacher, i know i've learned. and i apply what i  have learned.

teaching is my blood. my passion. my life.

so who are you to judge?

sunog

kaninang umaga habang nagbibihis kame ni allan...

jill: nakakapagod. umaga pa lang pagod na ako.
allan: oo nga hon. kawawa ka naman. byahe pa lang sunog ka na....
(silence....hindi ako alam sasabihin ko. nagjo joke ba asawa ko or serious sya?)

i shared the kwento with aj, bab and lester. they all LOL for the remark! =D

stone

rain and summer at the "stone"

it was there before i could remember it. the huge stone at our conference hall. well i used to think it is so big, so huge that i couldn't go on top on if until i got taller. i can easily see the stone's head top. some things sure are huge when you're a kid. =D

i used to visit our conference as often as i want to play when i was little. it's the place where we can find our "buhay na bato" .my friends told me that it would turn to gold or money if you have a pure heart. of course i believed them so i kept coming back for more. i know i was little but i want to be rich. i want to buy all the barbie doll in the world. that's me. a horder! =D 

our conference has a wondrous site! you can see the whole cogeo-bagong nayon place when you are at the top of it. it's windy there too. but we can't fly kites because of the sidewalk's rough edges. today, our conference has playground sets to offer children but i noticed, when we went there last week, that the set turned gray and rusty. i hope our barangay captain can do something about it since many children will benefit if they build new playground there.

just last week also, i noticed the increasing number of teenagers dating at our conference. it was new to me. youth right now sure are so expressive that they can do anything, anywhere, without being considerate. well, irregardless of those tiny, bitsy details, i still love our conference. i am attached to it especially that it brings childhood memories within me. that is perhaps the reason why i would like to go there with rain and summer...so that someday, conference will have the same attachment to them the way it has to me.

my two wonderful angels. thank God for my gifts!

view from our conference =D